today we went to IMM and have breakfast ..after dat shop around ..... and went to daiso to buy box, cos my nail polish cant fit my previous one ..so gona buy a bigger one .. haha ..a fter dat bought lots of food and went back home and eat ... eat sushi , yogurt icecream calmchowder .... den i go and take a napbcos super tired ..donknow why .. after dat my bro wake me up ask me ... eh i tot u say u wanna drive car to ur ntu , yeah i wann learn de road ... but we haf to go ahhao hse first cos thier hse no electricity haha .. so i drive there ..wif my sis in law and bro ... wanying friends also at there .... so they go fix the elect box den i go find wanying to watch inkigayo performance ..... bcs today is heechul last performance before he enlist ... the performance is awesome as usal .. and donghae look fking shuai la .... but he not dancing due to his injuries ... siwon nt on the stage bcos he had to film his drama .... wookie keep winking at me non stop .. haha ... nothing goes wrong ... but when we watch the winner stage .. damn god ... when leeteuk start to gif speech ... he start to cried .. i saw it and i start to cried tooo .. i cry infront of wanying friend... i cant control myself ... cr untill my eyes red red ... after dat heechul gf his last speech ... leeteuk break down on the stage ... wahhh ..teukie arhhh .... i'm sad ... heechul tear already gonna fall soon but he keep endure ... but we still cans ee his tearful eyes .. i believe ELF crying all over the world ... haish .. i cant imagine sep1st ... will i cry in the sch ... damn god ... i might break down at home ... damn god ..otoke .. and ya .. i didnt study today ..holishit ... play all the day ... arh .... say back to my driving today .. haha ..after dat they teach me how to go ntu by expressway ... so inde car got ahhao sis-inlaw and bro .. three instructors .. haha ... they kep saying me tat i too nervous.. haha ... cos long time nv drive liao .. 2weeks haha ... :) ..den ya .. de road very easy lo .. heex.... den we went back to ahma hse and eat .... just now we play games using our itouch/ipad/iphone together .. so fun... driving car ... i know how to drift laio lo .. like a pro .. haha ... hmm .... later shld i start CA??? hmmm ... heechul ....
yea ....ytd is a long day ... 8.30 to 5.30 school ... damn shag ... thank eunice to drive me to student service centre to collect my std card haha .. after school went to eliz hse ..... den we went to eat ribenchun ... and meet thiam joo too .. we took lots of photo .. haha ...after dinner we go clementi singsong from 11pm to 2am ... haha soo tired lo .. after back to eli hse bath and sleep ... till 10am .... eli mum bring meehoon for us ... thanks aunty ... den around 12plus thiamjo call eli and ask us whether wanna meet honglin , go eat mac ... yea ... saw him wif his botak ... haha ..and again he crap again .... soo funny laugh like siao in de mac.... i wanna eat cheese cake leh .. haha ... after tat went to jp alone ... go and buy my file paperclips ...den go etude hse ..actualli i onli want to buy nail pen pink,,, but got promotion lo .30% lo .. so i bought 3more colour haha ... one mate grey , one green and one sweet orange pink .. haha .... just finish watch strong heart .... and i gonna revise my work soon ... since ytd i didnt do any revision . feel so sinful lo .. hmmm .... kyuhyun say half of the member are dating .. i believe donghae , eunhyuk siwon and leeteuk got girlfriend lo .. i guess onli and of cos shindong .. haha .. donghae arh ... even though i know u are taken but ARH .... must xin fu ohhhhh ..:) okie gonna do my tutorial le !!!
tml shld be a holiday for me but , my grp mates say wanna meet tml ..so after tat 1hr math tut gonna go do our experiment .... how ii wish i can sleep at home .i need some nap and rest ... i really tired .. everytime doing tutorial soo many qns i donknow how to do 'solve ..feel very depressed .... den the thought of drop out flow thru my mind... just now went to bath and i cry .. i realli cant adapt uni ... too chim for me to study .... data structure kill me the most i realli doesnt understand anything ... gonna see my first semd result and realli haf to think whether i shld continue study or drop of ... wo zhen de hen lei le .... kpop + studies =tired.... how i wish i can enoy my weekend ..but it seems like i cant afford to use for free time .. i need to read notes re do tutorial to catch up my works ... wo zhen de bu xiang du shu le ... heng lei heng lei .....
tml gonna be a long day again !.... friday ealry morning gonna wake up ..... next week two days public holiday but after tat gonna study until very late cos of the make up lec ...... hope tml doing grp work will be fun enough ... pls make it fun ... arh .... bcos i cried just now now my nose is blocked ... running nose , no sick pls .. cant afford it ... hwaiting huishan ... jia u bah ....
since start school i have been lately update my bloggy... fking stress fking tired fking donknow wad i am doing ... every day fill up with tutorial and lec notes ... everyday study till 12... i realli tired le ... in poly i nv stuy like this before just like i preparing my common test or major exam ... everyday must schdule wad tutorialshl i do today ..like a shit ... i still cant adapt to uni life.. everyday was like thinking ..when will drop out ... if i fail my core exma shld i re take or just drop out an go for work ... but thinking of arh ..my ahma want me study hard in uni.... arhh ..i tired.....
sunday nite .suju after inki some went to film dream team .... and wad ...!! donghae and yesung injured ..... yesung injured his spine and is like wahhh damn serious ... den donghae hurt his ankle and knee .... actuualy he gonna go taiwan today to attend the ss3 3D ... due to his condition he force to stay in korea ... and yesung hiash ..guys can u pls take more kare of urself ... monday mornin wanna to see any news abt yesung but what i see ..ARH ...KIMHEECHUL gonna enlist on sep1st ... is like damn god so sudden so fast ??!!? i tot leetuek say both of them will enter in 2012 ... mean ..ss4 no heechul?? and 2sep is SMtown in jap lo .. dman god .. afternoon more news of heechul is out .. reading .and i ust cried out .. omg ... i cant think what i do on sep1 .. sure break down at home ..ust like kangin enlist .. cry like no tml .. sad men .. last kangin also enlisr during suju 4jib promotion den now 5ji b heechul enter .. arhhhh .,,, heechul !!!!... thisfew days i might very low mood bah .. haish ... save me ..
tired .. i'm tired ... today lesson strat at 8.30 actualli it shld end at 4.30 but end up 5.30 ...cos i doesnt know how to do programming ... i sad ... thanks the lec for helping ..and ya meet a new friend ... call yingting ... she is an elf also ...ryeowook bias .. i so high dat i know she is an elf .. haha ..happy ... after sch chiong to jp but .... firstly i lost in S2 building ..holimama .. haha ... den waitin bus omg ... 10 179 ,,, i den able to go up ... shit ... cos we are the last two bustop in ntu campus .. hiash .... meet eli ... went for cheena food ... den shop around for lookin present for her friends .... reach home ..and start to do my part2 programmin ..this shld hand in by today bt haha .. tml after my tech comm i gonna join eunice class... hmm gonna end at 4to5 pm again ... i shld head to ahma hse bah den thurs go striaght to sch from ahma hse ..tml start my english lesson .. wish me luck ppl .. hwating huishan .. jia u .... everyone pin hopes on me .. i damn stress .. bleh... gonna do my physic now ...
midnight now !! i just revise my integration ... now gonna start my circuit analysis ... damn god ... haha .. just now play mahjong ..so soo much fun haha ... andy too funny .... cute ass..... tooday inkigayo hope suju oppa can grab trophy back .. uhoo ... i love how our oppa tweet with thier photo ... bro love lo ... soo many photo upload by hem this week ..love them all .. my itouch everyday changin phtoo lo .. hah a.. i need tt watch kbs kiss the radio subbewd and shimshintapa ... suju went to both radio on fri after music bank .. see some video ..damn cute damn funny .. i love thier live singing .. yesung oppa is too funny .. his sing likt no tml lo .. :) hmm ... today my san gu said to me something ... bcos ahkiat is back from china . den i heard that kiat tryin to looking for me in ntu ... arh back to topic .. my da gu told my san gu ... till now i still donknow why huishan will get into ntu ... u see her psle 183 olv 19 ... how come she cang et into ntu ... hmm ... i know my studies from young is not tat good ..yea is bad ... now i also very stress .. can i survive tru this few yrs ntu ..can i cope thier pace ... bless me ... haish ... i only some of my friend would think , bcos engineering easy to score mah ... tat why i haf good result u know business so hard so difficult ... ah arh ... engineering is easy ??!!?? hiash .... tat my life ... ppl look down on me ... yea .. i agree that i have bad english :( .. there fore business not suit me ... hiash .. don say le gonna revise le ..
today lec start at 8.30 ... ir each at 8.40 .. bcos morning before i leave my hse sudden stomach pain .. so went to toliet and shit .. hah .. therefore i'm late ..during every lec , i sleep half way tru .. i donknow why so sleepy lo .. if lesson start at 9.30 i wont get sleepy ..but when it start at 8.30 .. even second thirf fouth lesson all i feel so sleepy .. so cleppy.. so noon lec didnt attend and went back home and sleep to 4pm .. den pack stuff and head to aham hse .. watch music bank ... DAEBAK .... superjunior win music chart .. lalala .. haha ... tey promise to let yesung to show his breakdance ..but when yesung gonna dance ... kbs just cut it ..dat end .. is scream so loud that my ahma almost heart attack ..damn god .. i waitied soo long they just cut it off .. the encore is qiute short .maybe teukie oppa speech too long?? .. nt fair ... kbs i demand the full encore stage .. alway like att suju encore stage always so shrt ..dman god .... esung arhh ... i almost cry out lo .. how can like that treat us ... suju first award in music bank for mr simple .... de encore stage so short ,,, i hate u ... bleh ... they even cut short mr simple song .. they took away teukie rap .. return back to us !!! .. shit ... i hate u ... cut shrt soo many parts .. but at leat the backtstage interview is awesome .. bcos of oppa not u kbs ... heeechul keep doin suzy part behind enhyuk ... they even let kyuhyun take the mic and say few words... and yesung sing mblac song ... daebak sound so nice haha ... listen to mightymouse fiesta, nice song ..haha ... :)
today watch two episode of 2days 1night .. one of my favourite korea variety show .. tat epsiode is waterfall !!!... i donknow since when i love to see waterfall .. haha ... i see waterfall i will get excited haha ... hmm now revising my math ... lec is damn fast la ... gonna self study at home ... bleh .. hwaiting ... more module coming .. bleh .... tml 8.30 lesson wonder i will wake up on time mah .. hah a.. gonna ask my mum to wake up soon .. haha
today mnet countdown!!! superjunior make thier 4yrs comeback to mnet ... and they grab the award ..uhoo !!!.... first mr simple award..yatai ... tml will be music bank ... i hope they grab award again .. pls let them be the winner .. so oppa and us will be happy :) .... oppahwaiting .. huishan hwaiting
damn god i fail my qet .. my first test in ntu and i fail it .. holishit .. but i expected .. so is okie .. so gonna take an English module on Wednesday morning ... i almost cant wake up on time ... i expected to get out of home around 10.20 and i wake up on 10.10 am ... holishit .. brush my teeth and change my clothes and out i go .. lucky is on time haha .. after physic lec .. went to bought notes again ..a nd i saw the guy again jss guy .. a basket baller but i forgets his name ... after we go and find our tutorial class. cos haf to meet our mentor ..damn god ... my mentor is a angmo!!! damn god .. when he speak hi i justin .. i turn my head and see OMG !!ANGMO ..how am i gonna communicate with him .. haha ... he gonna take us for 3yrs .. if i have any problem i had to approach him .. damn god ... omg !!! .. haha ... after sch went to jp and bought my file and do my ntu ezlink card ... 8bucks ..gonna wait for email to ask me to go collect the card ... bleh ..
today i halp me aunt to do pedicure .. last Sunday i do my sis today i do my aunt ... i do the same design but wif diff colour ah ha ... my sis is grenn base with purple spots , den my autn is yellow wif green spots... i think is nice lo .. i gonna paint my nails like tat do . haha ... learn to do the design from youtube .....over there got lots of nice design haha ...
today 5pm go to dayi hse ..celebrate popo birthday .... and my dad ask me to drive :) haha ... so stress whenever he sit beside me :) .... safety reach dayi hse .... dabiaoge and erbaio ge reached ... so i play wif thier kids first ..den we went to eat steamboat .... yea ..golden mushroom is the best of all lo . ahah ..after eating ... play wif the kid for the wholeevening ... around around the house .. went to the small garden and run around .. haha... didnt wear slipper so our feet is damn black after dat climb up to qiqi room and wash our legs in the bath tub ..so cute ... haha .. after dat we use qiqi laptop and take photo ..till when went back to watch firework .. so left qiqi and me camwhore in her room haha ... till 7plus ..went down to haf our second round ..den 4th yi and er yi came .... babiesss!!again .... we got 2yrs old, 9months and 3months babies!!! .... i dn dare to carry the monthsss babies .. cos i scare i drop them .. haha ... arh damn cute .. i love to play wif the kids.... damn cute .... but he problem is gonna speak english wif them haha ... yea :) .... hmm tml sch again ... 1hrs lec pls mentor session den can go home ..2hrs total .... bleh ....
first day of school , three diff lec ...alike ael, em3a, enmec haha ... after school went back home and meet shipei to look for eli .... went to her grandpa wake .... around 9plus went back home again ... and 12am bring the kite and meet zhuhao eunice and ck ... haha ..went to jp dere fl ktie ..but no wind ... around 2 went to west coast eat prata ... de standard drop a lot .. so small so ex .. haha ... after dat went to west coast ... play flying fox and others haha .. after dat chat and chat till 3.30am ... and went back home ... when i reach home .. open de door , i saw my dad standing at the living room .... he damn shock .. and ask me where i go .. haha . so told him go fly kite and supper lo :) .. after dat he go watch his tv and i go bath and watch funshion and sleep at 5am ..and ii wake up at 12.20 pm ..haha..
ytd went to madai and visit ahgong and uncle .... yea ... my aunt craze on fishin joy .. omg .. i teach everyone the fishingjoy ..so they are lots richer den me .. haha ... and ya ..ytd able to drive dad cara while haha .. is liek 3mins?? from ahgong to unce dere ... haha ..short distance .. but my dad wanna me to drive too our dinner place also but my da gu complain dat .. i donknoe well the road plus is parallel parking so she insits not let me to drive okie lo ... gif back the key to my dad ... disliek her la .. her son can drive to anyone why i cant ..bcos i'm a girl?? new license ?? bleh .. dlan .... hmm contiunue on my superjunior comeback stage mbc , m usic core .. haha ... awesome guys ... is a blast ... but donknwo why i prefer musci bank one .. but lots of elf prefer music core ... hmm .. maybe they too colourful ytd .. haha .. now i learning dance step from wawa ... yea ... some part realli hard i need to practice my legs but i cant do it now ..cos i'm at ahma living room .... so i need to go home and practise .. lo .. haha .... lock the door and practise ... tml starting school soon ... omg ... 5 months of holiday gonna end soon ... hmmm ... in this 5months .. i complete my driving within 3months and get a driving license .a good achievement .. den able to go vietnam , genting and hongkong .. nice trip ... haha ... able to meet my girls , many shopping and gathering session ... now is time to study hard .. and i realli wish i can survie this 3years smoothly ... tat my wish now ... :)now gonna learn my mr simple now ..... superman lyric is totally awesome ... SUPERJUNIOR THE LAST MAN STANDING ...arh gonan say something ... i love our leader teukie bcos he damn caring for elf .. he bought 400 elf an icercream today.. who q-ing outside inkigayo today ... omo ... so sweet so caring .... teukie i gonna cry soon ..
okie ppl ... i watched superjunior comeback stage today .. damn awesome ... one word ...DAEBAK .... i love superman more .. haha ... the lyric and the atmosphere ..damn cool .. first point , damn love the couple duet , when the three couple sing thier duet, first kyuand min .. i saw them and start to scream .. omg kyumin couple , after dat yesung and wookie also havin duet .. omg i scream more .... suddenly enhyuk start to rap , and i was looking for donghae and he just appear and rap also .. this three couple is damn cute ... omoomo ... second point .. teukie rap part .. they doing the star thinngy .. omo .. last few week they keep teasing us with the star photo .. today finally know wad it means... damn awesome i love that part too .... third point , the last sentences ... last man standing ... wow ... dat damn cool ... daebak !!!! .... but heechul darkcircle ultra dark lo ... :) .... hwaiting .. let talk about mr simple ... uhoo ... is cool again ... but enhyuk hair look funny ... he almost center parting lo ... when heechul pass him back the mic the camerea man just fail it ... haha .. thank heechul oppa , so enhyuk able to hand stand during dance break .. holi awesome ... :)jiang ... and wookie stop seducing me .. damn god ..i love his cuteness and sexyness ... killin me ... his wink melt me ...slowly melting in process..damn god ... brr... great job ....!!!!.. shindong look nice also ... :) my oppa are damn awesome ... elf too .... superjunior + elf ..=one big family ... love each other and ya .. today winner is 2ne1 but they didnt came so no encore stage, so suju take over thier stage ,,, leeteuk stood out and thank elf who went down to kbs .. he keep bow-ing adn wave .. he even walk down to the seat dere .. i love my leader so much .. i touched by his move . he care so much for elf , he alway bow over 90degree down , i respect himoppa .. he look damn handsome today .. !!!! jiang ..and ya .. i really wish to wipe thier sweat away lo ... they sweat liek crazy during performance ... sungmin kyuhyun shindong siwon ..deir sweat omo ... i looking forward tml comeback .. new superman and mr simple !!DAEBAK !!!
today havin orientation .... thanks eunice for driving me to school ... damn many ppl lo ... many cheena .. haha .. we still able to wear ntu robe .. and the light out ceremony .. look awesome .. hah .. after dat went for lunch buffet ... after tat went back to auth another round of talk .. haha .. talk for the whole day lo ... but after the talk finsih ... eunice and i chiong home haha .. but i took sbs bus home ..cos she goin town ..not the same way ... rush home to watch kbs ..music bank .... :)
since 2pm till now i keep spam ing mr.simple mv ... omg .. how crazy iam.. haha .... and this com auto shutdown 4times ... shit .. haha ... okie i shld stop watching it ..... gonna watch my 'all my love' ..haha ... stop letting ryeowook to seduce me heex... and ya ... shipei get her driving license .chukakimida ... !!! grats ....:) .. feel happy for her .. but she put me aeroplane today .. so we nv meet today ..but i promise yy tat before he enlist i need to meeet him once .. haha ... good boy ..t ml gonna go ntu again .. for orientation ... damn early la, 9.30am ... shit u ..so early for wad .... but lucky eunice able to fetch me ..heex ..thanks so much ..and i told her tml i gonna leave school ealry cos i need to chiong home to watch music bank .. cant afford to miss thier comeback ... tat time during sorrysorry i haven start to like them ... bonamana i miss it bcos i having attachment ... i tried to rush home but nope ... i even cried at the bus interchange cos i didnt manage to reach home.. how silly ... tears keep flowing out lo ... haha ... look so stupid first time crying outside lo ... so tml i must diedie reach home on time to watch .... today press conference siwon said ... he will not wear the outfit of the teaser photo during perf, omg ..sure , if u wearin that i might laugh till death ..haha how can u wear that and dance .. i will laugh loudly ... so glad that he not wearing it :) .... and the topic of enlisting is hurting elf too .. i don bear to send teukie and heechul to army ... i might breakdown ... i sure cried untill my eyes sore ... omo ... tat time boom and kangin i already cried.. i might breakdown ... haix..cant imagine taat day lo .. omo .. elf all over the world will cry like me ... omo .. cant think of it le ... nono ..andeh ...
wanying told me ..she bought me a belated present .. haha ... i think she bought me donghae version of mr simple ... i donknow ... she say i will happy to death .... hmm... and something link with superjunior ... and i told her today ... ryeowook gonna push donghae down soon or later..and she said ... better stick close wif donghae ...heex.... ... omo ..donghae still nuber 1 la ..ryeowook 2nd ... kyuhyun 3rd... omo i need to arrange my bais list ...
mr simple mv is out .. fking awesome ... omg ... is damn nice .... everyone look fkin shuai inside .... even shindong look damn shuai lo .. omoomo .... and ryeowook gonan overtake donghae anytime .... he sexyness in this mv omoomo ...is killing me ... his 'alright ' is too seducive for me .. he keep seducing me non stop .. omoomo ... 1) leeteuk , the first line HEY! MRSIMPLE ! is hawt ... u make me wanna be a mrs simple now ... haha pls call me mrs simple this month ... 2) heechul, omo oppa ur hair i cant take it ... too man too curl for me .. haah ... and can u just move ur body ... haha ... u look like a heisehui ppl .. uhoo ...3)yesung , omo ur alright is killing me too , and many part too full of sexyness ... kill me pls ... 4)shindong, dong oppa .. u are awesome .. freaking shuai handsome .... more lines i happy with it :)5)sungmin , thank god for letting in the dance break and more lines..... i love his pink socks ..haha ...6)enhyuk, damn god ... ur breakdance handstand is totally awesome , jiang ... love ur blone hair day by day:) 7) donghae, cutie pie ... love ur dancing part ... damn cute but you haf to show more if not wookie is gonna overtake u baby fish .... hwatiing 8)siwon, the hottest guy in the world.... doin a great job in this mv too .... but wookie gonna overtake ur sexyness soon haas 9)ryeowook, wookie arh u doin the best in this mv... i love everypart..dance and sing ... great jobs wookie .. hwaiting ... love u soo much ... ur'alright totally killing me' .... 10)kyuhyun, kyugame is damn shuai in his solo .. his eyes keep seducing me..oh... dancin kyu appear again haas :)...
2.3hrrs .... i keep repeating the same video again and agin... too cool too great too awesome too DAEBAK !!! hwaiting waiting for tml music bank comeback .. i gonna sneak out of my orientation ..
kr bbq i coming .. wahaha ... going wif elizabeth ... :) .... but i miss my tanjongpajar tat bbq .. i miss thier beef soo mch haha ..:) .. nvm ..must gif other stall a chance ... and i also wanna try west coast de .. cos my cheng hao oppa say is great also ..heex......
i wanna go kbox also .... who wanna fulfil my dream ?? wanna go before i start my school.since eli gonna help me to fulfil the korea bbq ...haahaha....:) ...nice one .. i hungry now
last night after the malaysia trip ... went back home ... and wads ... full album is out ... listen all de songs .. omg .. there are some songs damn nice ... haha ... mr simple!!!..... after dat gonna sleep cos today morning havin english test haha ... yea gonna say something ... i dreamt of superjunior !! .. oh my is like damn close .... skinship ..wahhh ... i need more of this dream arh .. haha ... donghae hug me, and talk to me ... hi -five with ryeowook , den suddenli heechul appear in front of me ... walk damn near me ..damn god .... after dat i jiu awake le ... spoilt my dream .. sad .. haha ....
went back sch to have english test meet eunice ... wait damn long ... haha .. oh my i choose the topic of , something about choosing local or oversea unviversity .. haha ... i thnk i exceed the wording ... omg .. haha ..after dat eunice send me to jurongpoint ... buy food and went back home ... after finish de burger .. went down to carpark practise parking haha ... gt few ppl keep lookin at me ... but i feel dat i doin alright .. haha ... after finish my parking ..saw one lorry came into the carpark .. omg is dad ..hah a.. he gif me a face ... and ask me wad u doin here??!!?? .. haha ... but he nv say anything still ask me den how ur parallel haha ... still ask korkor to acc me go parking.. shit him la . i donknow him to teach me parking ..... keep kb me ..sad .. ahah ..
uhooo ...
today .. my san gu and sis chatting in ahma room ... after awhile i went in to kpo ... talking about pregnancy stuff ... cos my sis is not very healthy ..after soo many years , she still cant have baby ... but those married cousin around us all already had babies .. every yr same qns during cny .. hiash ... .. so she said to me if u realli pregnant , no matter what .. just give birth ... no abortion ,,, i believe our family will help u raise the kid ... so i was thinking maybe wanying will pregnant first .... not me ...cos wanying more rebellious than me ... so they said the same things to wanying .. haass:) ... after that 9pm watch a taiwan varietyshow ... the topic is talking about when u get married will u gif birth ??? ... so today topic just surrounded with babies !!??!! ... will i haf babies in the future ?? hmm ... will i get a bf ?? will i marry?? hmmm ... i donknow ... i have been single for soo many years ... ppl ask why ?? no ppl tried to ask u out ?? ... ehhh .. but is true that in poly none asking me out :) ..den ppl will start saying , isit ur expectation too high?? wanna handsome tall guys? ehh ppl .. i really doesnt haf the thought that i want a handsome guy... i know how i look like ..i'm not pretty at all , haha ... see my ex got any of them are handsome guys?? no none of them is .. but i can say who doesnt like to see handsome ppl ??? i like to see but i wont go for it ... i prefer cute guys .. haha .. just like my 118 .. ppl keep saying me ... oh ulike tall , handsome guy high expectation... but no ..if u see my 118 ... he not handsome at all to me he is cute but to other ppl may nt think the same way as me ... he got large pores !! haha .. but he still look nice to me... he not tall ... maybe a bit taller den me or almost the same as me ... but he damn sweet .. i can say this .. i love the way he chatting to me :) ..sweet guys ... so stop saying that i only love handsome and tall guys .. haish .. those are just when i still in secondary childish thought ... . haha ...new relationship hmmm ... but i also scared of it ... bcos my last relationship was really a shit to me ... but i knew that time i really young and i really don know love..i don know how to maintain , don know what to do for each other .. how silly,so stupid .. haha .. now hmm don know how to say ...i don dare to accept a new relationship, but i still looking for ..doesnt had the confident of dating .. haha .. sometime will really think of hmm i want to in a relationship .. i need some sweet life .. i cant have such a boring life during my 20 .. but also i scare it will affect my studies... hia ya i don know la ... lets see wad will happen to me .. sad life happy life ?!? ... hmm ...
tml shld be a holiday for me but , my grp mates say wanna meet tml ..so after tat 1hr math tut gonna go do our experiment .... how ii wish i can sleep at home .i need some nap and rest ... i really tired .. everytime doing tutorial soo many qns i donknow how to do 'solve ..feel very depressed .... den the thought of drop out flow thru my mind... just now went to bath and i cry .. i realli cant adapt uni ... too chim for me to study .... data structure kill me the most i realli doesnt understand anything ... gonna see my first semd result and realli haf to think whether i shld continue study or drop of ... wo zhen de hen lei le .... kpop + studies =tired.... how i wish i can enoy my weekend ..but it seems like i cant afford to use for free time .. i need to read notes re do tutorial to catch up my works ... wo zhen de bu xiang du shu le ... heng lei heng lei ..... 
damn god i fail my qet .. my first test in ntu and i fail it .. holishit .. but i expected .. so is okie .. so gonna take an English module on Wednesday morning ... i almost cant wake up on time ... i expected to get out of home around 10.20 and i wake up on 10.10 am ... holishit .. brush my teeth and change my clothes and out i go .. lucky is on time haha .. after physic lec .. went to bought notes again ..a nd i saw the guy again jss guy .. a basket baller but i forgets his name ... after we go and find our tutorial class. cos haf to meet our mentor ..damn god ... my mentor is a angmo!!! damn god .. when he speak hi i justin .. i turn my head and see OMG !!ANGMO ..how am i gonna communicate with him .. haha ... he gonna take us for 3yrs .. if i have any problem i had to approach him .. damn god ... omg !!! .. haha ... after sch went to jp and bought my file and do my ntu ezlink card ... 8bucks ..gonna wait for email to ask me to go collect the card ... bleh ..
kr bbq i coming .. wahaha ... going wif elizabeth ... :) .... but i miss my tanjongpajar tat bbq .. i miss thier beef soo mch haha ..:) .. nvm ..must gif other stall a chance ... and i also wanna try west coast de .. cos my cheng hao oppa say is great also ..heex...... 
last night after the malaysia trip ... went back home ... and wads ... full album is out ... listen all de songs .. omg .. there are some songs damn nice ... haha ... mr simple!!!..... after dat gonna sleep cos today morning havin english test haha ... yea gonna say something ... i dreamt of superjunior !! .. oh my is like damn close .... skinship ..wahhh ... i need more of this dream arh .. haha ... donghae hug me, and talk to me ... hi -five with ryeowook , den suddenli heechul appear in front of me ... walk damn near me ..damn god .... after dat i jiu awake le ... spoilt my dream .. sad .. haha .... 